My 2010 Resolutions.

It’s the end of 2009. Are you sad? Will you hold on to it? Did you have sweet lasting memories? And you thought that this is the best year ever?

I wouldn’t. I didn’t think so. I can’t wait to get this year over. And start a new year with better hopes.

As for better year, I would think it is necessary to change my lifestyle. So, I have several list for my 2010 resolution.  Several of them I update in my twitter.. and the rest of it are here.

1. Ok first one. Make a good achievable list of 2010resolution and try to do it before end of 2010, not after!

Its hard to make a resolution for yourself especially when you get used to being who you are. But its even harder to achieve it. So, make it a challenge but achievable!

2. Don’t be a vegan … yet! Because KFC, Nando’s, TGIF and Mr. Teppanyaki are still really good!

3. I’m not really good at being single. So, have a boyfriend!! *lirik2*

4. Bali? or Pie Pie island? Right now, even Mentawai island sounds good too.

Need a holiday to plan next year … with bodat!

5. Black flat shoes and small yellow bag!

I know this sound more to wish list than a resolution. Hihi..

6. Be a morning person! Except on Saturday, Sunday and public holiday.

7. Be more active and productive. Sounds so wrong, I’ll try to make more sense.

8. Be aggressive to myself. Well, I mean, be more self confident.

9. Have income! So I can buy the black flat shoes and my small yellow bag and go holiday!

10. Be a toothache free! is a MUST!

11. Have Megan Fox’s body! BUT… Naaaah, she’s not that cute!

12. Be nice to earth.

- Nothing wasted. No more wasting money. No more wasting tissue. No more wasting food. No more wasting tears.

- Plant something. Anything from green to red. Anything from flowers to fruit.

- Use less plastic bags. Less plastic bags means less shopping. Less shopping means more saving. More saving means more holiday! Yippie…

- Reuse, Reduce and Recycle! Think before buying!

13. Be an addict! A green tea addict!

14. Talk Less. Do More.

No, I’m not promoting any products here. I’m just referring to my ownself

15. Learn about literature and keep writing, practice, writing and practice.

16. Married!?!?

Oups, did I say it out loud?

17. Meet 50 people and blog about them!

I think I need more resolutions than these. But all of these are reflecting to my better version of me. and the rests are still yet to come.

Cheers! and Happy New Year!!!

Earth is shaking and I do too.

Today, I felt the earthquake and it was quite strong. It happened at 8.11am while I was sleeping. My alarm went on and I was about to turn off the snooze and ready to sleep till noon. While my eyes are still half closed and I was barely awake, I felt something’s moving my body front and back. I still didnt realize that it was an earthquake. I tried so hard to fully open my eyes and felt what I felt before. Just to make sure that it was an earthquake! It stopped for seconds but then it started to shake again. I quickly dropped my blanket and walk outside. Followed by Mbak Sum.

I was still half awake. The earthquake stop but I was still shaking. I heard nothing from my mom, sister or brother’s room. Guess they were too sleepy to run outside. Mbak Sum said I really look so pale and my lips are white blue. Ok. I’m scared. This is my first time to feel the earthquake that strong! I wasn’t here when the strongest one happened sometime this year. So, I have the right to be pale and blue. He he..

The info I get is the earthquake center is 127KM away from my city, Padang which is in Mentawai Island. It was 6.1 SR and lasted about a few seconds. and no body is hurt, I think.

1 thing I learn from this earthquake. Something could happened this morning, some terrible things. and I could be as sleep and not feel a thing. and it could be worse than this. Disaster could happen in any day, any time and any place. I just realized that I should be 24/7 alert. and from now on, I try to wake up early morning as possible. Time to do a harsh cleaning and make 2010 resolutions!

Btw, I was driving around Padang about weeks ago and took this picture. Do click to see the full size.

and Me..

Malam yang pendek!

Malam ini kepala aq pusing bangets padahal masih pengen ngerjain business plan yang 2 bulan udah lewat deadlinenya.. Tapi karena deadlinenya aq sendiri yang nentuin..yah, jadi kyk gini deeeh.. Suka2 gigi aja kapan selesainya..

pengen curhat ah sebelum nutupin mata untuk malam yang pendek banget! Masih jam 9! Tapi udah ga kuad nahan kepala yang beraaatt… Curhat yang ga penting… Here it goes..

sekarang kenapa ya aq susah banget untuk suka sama cowok? Kalau dulu juga susah untuk mencintai cowok 100%… Apalagi sekarang. Berdasarkan pengalaman2 duluu.. kalau belum nikah, ga usah ngubar janji! Karena kalo ga terpenuhi, pahit banget jadinya. Lebih baik janji2 untuk beli es krim atau nonton bareng aja, daripada janji setia sehidup sejiwa raga! Cuikh!
Tapi sebenarnya aq bukan mau crita masalah janji. Pengen crita tentang betapa pengalaman2 itu mengubah pikiran, pola hidup dan perasaan. kadang aku suka melihat2 situasi sebelum pacaran, tapi sebenarnya situasi itu udah jelas dan ga perlu dilihat lagi. Aku jadi ngejaga banget perasaan aq, jadi ngejaga jarak antara cinta dan sayang dan suka. Yang akhirnya aku sendiri yang nebak2, dia suka atau sayang atau cinta? Dan semuanya pun jadi runyam!

Kemana sih sosok cowok yang bisa nepisin semua ragu2 atau semua masalah hati?
Kalau sekarang malah ada yang TTm atau selingan atau malah lagi tren mungkin untuk gangguin suami orang (wait… Trend yang itu udah dari dulu kaliiy yah).

Aku cuma pengen mengenal cinta yang sederhana aja. Aku suka kamu. Kamu suka aku. Kita pacaran. Kita bahagia. Aku sayang kamu. Kamu sayang aku. Kita ciuman. Kita nakal ya! Aku cinta kamu. Kamu cinta aku. Kita nikah aja ya, sebelum dosa!

That’s simple rite? Tapi kenapa ga bisa se-simple itu? Mungkin karena membahagiakan orang lain punya tahap2 yang berbeda. Pacaran mudah. Bahagia belum tentu. Pacaran dengan orang yang kuliah sama yang belum kuliah ternyata beda banget. Pacaran dengan orang yang udah kerja sama orang yang gak jelas kerjanya atau nganggur ternyata beda banget. Pacaran dengan orang yang gajinya kecil atau yang gajinya besar ternyata sangat sangat berbeda. Bahagia sekarang dinilai oleh kekayaan, kematangan dan kesiap sediaan. Bukan dengan aku suka kamu, kamu suka aku.

Aku hanya ingin yang sederhana aja. Where are you my love? Are you lost somewhere? Come here quick, before I drain all my hopes.

-curhat selesai. nyte-

Death? Do I need to say more…

Review of life..

Baca deh after the funeral by radityadika. Disitu dia nulis ttg temennya yang baru saja meninggal dan sebenarnya yang diAtas itu gak pernah melupakan kita, termasuk jodoh, rejeki dan maut. Jadi jangan pernah ngerasa invisible atau terlupakan. Dan perasaan dia to be something special and wonder who will remember him, sama banget seperti apa yang aku rasain.

Aku pengen cerita sedikit ttg kematian. Scary?

keep readiing…

Recently…

I felt hurt. empty. lonely. shame. hina. ugly. fat. over sensitive. hatred. useless. nobody. unexist. angry. sleepless. sick. tired. extremely bored. old. unwanted.

Nobody ever told me that there’ll be days like this. Even my mom never say the ‘lie’ word that “everything is gonna be alright”. Watching your day slips by, people keep screaming that “you only live once, so live life to the fullest”, and I read everywhere that people had the greatest job, the greatest love, the greatest dream, the greatest live and the greatest in everything else. When my life is just a blue clock not even hanging on the wall, it just lay there in the bunch of stuff that need to be pack.

My life is days from one appointment to another. It fills with sorrow, over sympathy, condolences and some other sad things that no need to be tell. Does everyone forget to bring happiness?

Sitting here everyday at the very uncomfy place in my home. I dont want to look sad because I’m not sad. there’s nothing to be sad anymore. Sad is over. I’m over sad. I just dont want to look back and say to myself “Sorry, for wasting time. Sorry I didnt fill you with anything. Sorry I didnt do anything”. Days slips by. Time will become time remaining. And I dont want to say that I had lived an empty, unimportant, unhappy, unmemorable life.

Mumbled by Pieth
@ Doha, o6.o8.o9

Regret

Its been 2 weeks since I broke up with my 6th boyfriend.. when I told my friends about it… The first thing they say “It happened to you before… u’ll get over it” Or “Its not the first time… u can handle it” … Well, to my friends out there… “I know its not the first time… I’ll get over it someday and 2 months later I wont even remember his last name!” but…. (there’s always a BUT..)

Keep Reading…

My dream… 10 years ago

(taken in 1999) still dont know how to pose…

I was still at my final semester at my 1st junior high school at Arun, Aceh. I was really small (walaupun sekarang masih kecil juga!), a bit dark because I always try to go out (excuse for not to be at home), and my hair was long and dark! I dont know my sister and my brother, I didnt see them that often. My mom always busy with her groceries store and my dad used to take us travelling around Sumatra. (now, they are the greatest family the world could ask)

Keep reading…

It’s just a new shit called ‘2009′

Why is it everyone bothers so much on how to celebrate the new year’s eve?? Shouldn’t we start improvising ourselves and make a list on what to do for “better me?

I hate to end this year… I really like 2008 and I want to hold on to it as long as I could… The new year’s eve was great… totally unforgettable… the Jan was really fun, thank you for Feb for so many holidays especially on the Chinese new year in Malacca… March was gloomy a bit because of ‘new found love’ and lost friend… (deeply miss), and April May June was just a fly… it was so fast that I forgot to laugh and cry… then comes the memorable July followed by August with one month Malaysia car ride trip… *I wouldn’t change it for anything… *

And then wake me up when September end… cuz my birthday was so fine., except for the present… *thanks sis*

Oct, Nov were Okay… my graduation was too simple, a man on my side, than n me both back in Malaysia and just love being there… and my December boy…

And now… I’m standing at the end of 2008… I will miss you guys,, will thinking of you now and then,, will tell your stories again and again… will write you a song if I am a singer,, ;( there’s so much stories to tell yet so little time… so just keep enjoying ur last day of 2008…

Happy New Year

Cheers