Not a Love Poem

When I’m with you
I don’t have
Heartbeat rising
Sweaty palms
Or butterfly in a stomach

When I think of you
I don’t listen to slow music
Dream of you during my free time
Or sending love message over the phone

I don’t have it with you
Nor faith, destiny or even what people call soulmate
I just think we are far beyond that

I’m sorry I don’t send you flowers
Or a note saying ‘forever and always’

And baby, I don’t believe in promises
But a goodnight kiss sound sweet..

But when I’m with you
My heart hear no sound
I am at the calmest state of mind

But what I have is
To wake up every morning thinking of you
And to feel you every night before bed
You’re the first and the last thing on my mind

Even though faith doesn’t bring us
But I want to come home and see your face everyday
And I’ll never get tired of it

And baby,
I just trust you
And nothing else matter

Forever is like the longest word
I only want till death do us part

and baby,
I just want to find you every day
beside my morning coffee and last cigarette of the night.

Mumbled by Pieth @ 11.08.09 @ Qatar

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I still hope for you

In the midst of thin air

You want me to go slow

Even when you don’t know where we’re going

This time,

I watched you from afar

But I know enough

You’re not coming back

When everything seems to fall apart

Let me take a step away

Away to go slow in different direction

Maybe to the road I used to know

Mumbled by Pieth @ Doha, August 2009.

Untuk Jodoh

Jodoh,

Apakah kamu telah melewatiku dikala aku berpacaran dengan yang lain?
Apakah kamu pernah terlintas di kepalaku?
Apakah kamu sama sepertiku, menginginkan semua yang terbaik?
Apakah kita akan lama bertemu?
Apakah kita bertemu esok?
atau kita sudah pernah bertemu…?

Apakah aku yang kamu cari?
Apakah kamu memiliki kemiripan denganku?
Apakah aku layak mendampingimu?

Apakah kita akan bahagia selamanya?
Apakah kamu melihatku dengan segala yang terindah?

Aku kangen kamu
Apakah kamu tahu aku sudah lama mencari dirimu?
Kapan kamu datang?
menggapai tanganku yang dingin dan sepi…

Apakah kamu adalah dirinya yang sekarang?

Jodoh,
aku berharap supaya kita cepat bertemu
dan kamu bilang padaku untuk
… berhenti mencari.

unwanted note

I had felt being wanted
touched and protected
I,
hoped for a flower to grow
wanted more than just one colour
desired for more love than before
What left for me is bitter
Even I knew that a part of me
is no longer there
though saying ‘hi’ is the hardest word
I am unarranged,
unknown for myself
the tree has died
and so do I

Written in Malaysia, 2o.o3.o5

Arti Bahagia

Ada kalanya kata-kata lebih baik tidak terucap!

Ada saatnya waktu harus berjalan tanpa henti… Semestinya kita bisa menunggu kala waktu terus berjalan.

Tapi, indah itu tak seharusnya hidup! Cinta tak seharusnya berkekalan… takkan ada yang abadi. Namun, semua harus berjalan dengan … atau tanpanya…

Ada kalanya cerita harus ditamatkan!

Hati harus tegar… karena kenangan akan datang. Sedih memang pahit … tapi apa arti bahagia kalau sedih tidak dimengerti jua!

Ada kalanya semua harus berakhir…

tanpa kata… tanpa jarak.. tanpa tatapan.. tanpa hinaan!

harus terima.. harus mengerti.. harus tau!!! karena segalanya sudah tak berirama…

[OST - James Morrison - The Pieces Dont Fit here Anymore]

What If

sweet… the first moment u had. it tingles your heart, softly creeping in your mind. what if…

then, you start to wonder. how this love is going to be? is there a rule to any simplicity? with all this heart beat that u gave, u swore that theres nothing else matter.

told you that i’ll care for you in this world we create, with all this last piece of love – just lean ur shoulder on mine… i’ll hold you.

what if i have never let you go…what if i could make it better… what if i have never walk away…

if i stayed, if we tried, if we could only turn back time…

but i guess… we never know

Dear

Dear loved,

The moment I wrote this ..

I think everyone knows that I still keep my feeling for you.

Thats true, and i dont want to keep it from the surface nor deny it.

The time you gave to me is priceless

You showered me with love, patience and gracefulness

I knew that I could count on you since the first day we met

I didnt even have a blink of doubt in you

But our time has changed us

Our goal is reaching out for us

You stand out from your place

You gave me nothing but your ambitions.

Dear,

I learnt a lot from you…

that LOVE can either touch you or breaks you

I know that pieces of you is still within me

and it will be forever there

I just want you to know …

that the one thing I never regret is to love you

and thank you for letting me go

I hope we’d find our happiness again…

Loved,

-piEth

[ost Lobow - Salah]

Silence

Silence = Absence or omission of mention, comment or expressed concern

I care too much…

I thought i can be a little judge…

I thought one would understand and be better…

I thought I was right…

Now, I realized that, i cant save the world. I cant be all the person people want me to be. i cant be supportive all the time. i am wrong….i lay myself in the wrong shoe..

then… there’ll be a time to move on. be a new me. be better me. be without my prejudice, my coherence, my sense..

a time to forget what should not be forgotten. a memory that too beautiful to be deceived.

one laughter. one line. one step. one song. one word. one mind. one smile. … i think its time…

one would never understand…. that now, i have nothing but silence..

                                                                          by [Blueish]